What does it look like to trust the Lord?
I recently asked myself this question and realized that what I thought trusting the Lord meant and what I actually lived out in my day-to-day life were too very different things.
In my heart I understood trusting God to mean that He is Creator over everything, He is faithful and His promises hold true. I have read my Bible on multiple occasions, so I am aware of His promises and blessings over those who believe in Him and walk in obedience. However, I was confronted by the Spirit that although I trusted in who God is, I was not trusting in what He can do.
So what does trusting the Lord look like in my life?
It means not worrying about getting behind in our daily lessons or not doing enough. It means not overfilling our days and pushing too hard. It means that if I’m obedient to what the Lord calls me to do, then I can trust Him to complete the good works He has planned in my life and my children’s lives. Even in my failures and shortcomings as a mother and home educator, He is faithful. He’ll use me where I am at and He’ll fill in the voids. He will use not only my best, but also my worst moments and failures for His good purposes.
I realized when I got so caught up doing it all, that I missed out on all the God moments throughout my day. I was so focused on the future, that I completely forgot to live in the present. He has called me into this role not because He thought I was the smartest or most capable person to train up my children and establish brilliant thinkers. No, He has called me into this role to bring up passionate followers of Jesus who understand first hand the need for grace day in and day out.
As of lately, He has really been transforming my heart and mind. He has been shedding light into my areas of shame and guilt and exposing them for what they are– lies. In my moments of failure and weakness as a mother and home educator, I felt so much shame and guilt. I kept speaking these lies over myself unknowingly. But as I’ve been reading through the book of Judges and going through my Beth Moore bible study, Living Free, He showed me His truth. I was reminded of 2 Corinthians 12:9, “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” I have always loved this passage, but it wasn’t until recently that those words spoke life into me. They freed me from the shame and guilt that i was chained to.
In today’s society, we see weakness as something undesirable, but God says, No, it is through your weakness that I can do great things. It is only when you are weak, that i can work through you.
So, I’m learning to say in my moments of weakness, Lord, use my weakness for your good. I know you will do great things where I have failed.
I have found such hope and comfort in this new understanding of what it means to trust the Lord.
When we look to the Bible, we see that God has always used the underdog. I currently finished a bible study on Judges and it was brought to my attention that each judge had some sort of deficit, especially in that time period. Ehud had a lame right hand, Deborah was a woman, Gideon was from the weakest clan and he was the least of his family and Jephthah was born of a prostitute and run out of the village. We see Samson struggle with pride and rebellion throughout his reign, yet the Lord used it all. There are countless other bible characters who came from lowly origins, yet God did incredible things through them.
In 1 Corinthians 1:27-29, “God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly and despised things of the world, and the things that are not, to nullify the things that are so that no one may boast before Him.”
So often I’m trying to live on my righteousness, rather than embracing His righteousness, because He alone is righteous. I thought being a Christian meant doing it right all the time, but I’ve come to see how wrong I was in my thinking. It’s knowing that I’ll never do it all right, but His righteousness will make it right. He’s our Savior, and only He can redeem us and our situations. All He asks is that we come to Him in those moments of weakness and say Lord use my weakness for your good.
I pray you can find freedom in your weaknesses, shed the guilt and shame you are carrying and fully trust that the Lord is sufficient enough for you.
SHARE: What area of your life do you feel weakest? How can you begin to give that over to the Lord?